Sometimes we just say, “Fuck it” to everything.

She Says It’s Fate

Despite all the odds, something brought us together. I’m not complaining though :)

She moved here just under a year ago, and luck would have it that her family came over and conveniently rented an apartment in our neighborhood. She also ended up taking the same bus as me every morning.

“You Two Are Such a Cute Couple!”

Our typical day:
-Wake her up for school at 7
-Talk until ~7:15
-Get ready for school while still on the phone
-Meet her at the bus stop
-Hold hands on the ride to school
-Get food with her during her break/talk
-Wait for her to get off class at 1
-Drop her off at work
-Wait for her to call me
-Fall asleep on the phone together

Repeat
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This is a typical school day for us. Every once in a while, a stranger will even come up to us and compliment how cute we are together. It’s wonderful :)

Finally Found Her Part 1

One day, in the beginning of the school year, I saw a girl at the bus stop. She was tall, with a slim physique, and long blackish-brown hair. She was cute. I wasn’t shy or anything.. I was just wondering if I’d see her on a regular basis, so I didn’t bother starting a conversation. On the bus ride I thought to myself, “Hmm.. Maybe I’ll get to know her one day.”

I saw her again a couple days later, and confirmed that she was a regular at my bus stop. It turns out she was my neighbor. I still hadn’t started a conversation with her.. But boy was I in for something. To my luck, some random kid walked by and threatened me cuz he didn’t like my sweater. I was heated but decided he wasn’t worth it. I couldn’t have a young lady who I’ve never spoken to and see all the time think I was just some troublemaker, right?. I just waited for the morning bus as usual. This was a blessing in disguise. I asked myself, “what have I got to lose?” and started a conversation with the pretty girl. It turns out her name was Valerie. She was 4 months older than me, and moved here from Guam. Things kicked off from there.

Yeah.. Typical cutesie, unreal, too perfect, movie scene-esque situation, right?That’s what I thought. Turns out she had a boyfriend already. I decided I didn’t care, and thought about messing around just to homewreck her. Yeah… That’s not so great, but no one is perfect. I was just fed up of all the rejection in my past. I thought I’d try being the bad guy for once, and so I did. Things caught me by surprise.

A few weeks flew by. Valerie and I realized that we clicked from the very start. Neither of us knows when we started holding hands, or when we decided our feelings were mutual. Sure, she was in a relationship, but she was so torn apart. She was caught in a typical unrequited love story.. So I took it upon myself to show her what a genuine gentleman was like. 

Maybe Sometimes

People just don’t need you anymore. It’s hard to accept.

What Makes You Different?

How come you’re the only one that can see me differently?
Why am I so into you?

I can tell you’re different, but I can’t help but have my doubts.. I want to tell myself that I have complete confidence in us, but I don’t want to set myself up only to get crushed again. My mind is so restless.. Am I obsessed? or infatuated? It’s definitely not lust. Despite all that, I’m confident that you’re worth a shot.

Hi. I’m A Guy That Cries

Cuz sometimes I hurt too.

A Letter to Someone

Hi, I’m that guy who could never ever really stop thinking about you. The one that promised to stick around and make you smile. You remember that? When we first met, I told you that I’d be the best friend that I could and be there every single time I was physically and emotionally able to. Yeah. That guy that greeted you, “Hey, gorgeous,” and “Goodnight, beautiful”. The one who didn’t only say, “I love you,” but that also made it a point to let you know that I appreciate you. I stayed on the phone with you through your hardships, sang to you over the phone until you fell asleep because you “needed it.” and “couldn’t get to sleep without it.” The one who so carelessly put your needs over mine. The one who didn’t need to wake up early, but did anyways so I could hear your sleepy, adorable voice to start off my day. That guy who stayed up just thinking about the future we planned out together. Who wrote poetry, and songs, and so many unfinished lyrics about you, but decided not to tell you about all of it because honestly.. I couldn’t define you. I really didn’t even know why I was so into you.. I just knew I was. The one who wanted to experience all the ups and downs of his first long-term relationship with you. The one who thought that you felt the same way. The one that put his feelings aside and tried to stay friends. The one you pushed away so easily. The one that ended up crying himself to sleep for two weeks when you got with another guy.

I just wanted to let you know that I don’t want to be that guy anymore.

Timing

Timing would have to be one of the best skills in the world. It applies to everything from writing a paper, to playing an instrument, sports, and even martial arts. If I could have any superpower in the world, I would have to say “perfect timing.” You could do anything you want as long as your timing is correct.

Trust

It’s much harder to let loved ones down when you know they have trust you. I think I trust too much.